these words are my diary screaming out loud

crazy

it’s just crazy how much things can change in a month, even a year. this time last year i was at a low, just broken up, seeing my ex with a new girl that i couldn’t stand. i had no one to talk to because nobody really understood (i mean my best friend yeah, but she had a bf it was different). i basically just ranted on my other tumblr the whole summer (the reason i made this one was because people i knew were starting to follow me on my other one and that takes away the whole point of private thoughts, not that i mind). so yeah, it was a miserable summer, everywhere i turned there seemed to be a reminder of my ex.

then just this time last month i was at an all time low. actually from like february until maybe early may i was at an all time low. i barely left my room, my mother actually told me she was going to seek help because i was so depressed. and now i look back and actually can’t believe that’s who i was a MONTH ago. how much your surroundings impact you is so strange.

i’m not saying i’m the happiest girl in the world, like i obviously still have my own set of issues that would take YEARS to get over, but i laugh more and care less about things i can’t really change. it’s a good, refreshing feeling, and i hope this summer can be a good oneeeee :)

may 28, 2012: doing better :)

(as if anyone cared here LOL)

prom was a success, really connected with someone amazing ;)

moving on in life. if things are meant to happen, they will. i just need to focus on other things, like not failing math lol.

just wanted to post because it feels like i haven’t been on here in a month and ik nobody actually reads this but yeahhh. happy memorial day :)

now if only i had some fucking beach house and i could have spent this weekend on the beach. oh well. can’t really complain that much

how do you know when something’s just the right amount?

my last boyfriend “i was too distant”

now with this guy i like, i feel like i’m pushing it, maybe being clingy or needy. or maybe it’s just my fucking head torturing me like always…

how do you know when it’s just right?!

after months (january) my love life is finally resurfacing

since my super dramatic breakup last may (life sucks, um obviously rumour has it comes on shuffle), my love life’s been such a bore. during the winter there was little bit of flirting with this senior and then we hooked up in january, but that was that. then nothing again.

nowww, there’s sort of a new guy, a senior again (im a junior) which is so amazing. i’m not saying i need a guy to define me, it just sucks being lonely for so long. hopefully this blossoms into something more :)